February 2010
1 post
January 2010
6 posts
I wanna know what it’d be like; to find perfection in my pride, to see nothing in the light. I’ll turn it off, in all my spite. In all my spite, I’ll turn it off.
I don’t know anymore. I really don’t know what the hell this is. We don’t talk and it’s like you don’t give a shit. And, it just makes me feel miserable. Because first, you tell me that you don’t feel the same way about me but later on, you tell me that you do. Then you decide to go away like it never happened. You know what that makes me feel like? It makes me...
“I get all worked up and then I let myself down.”
– Haven’t Met You Yet - Michael Buble
Realization #1 - I’m nothing special. Why do you still love me?
Our love's the perfect crime.
I’m off to school in a couple minutes. When I get back, I’ll fix this up. Half days ftw.
November 2009
3 posts
Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Allie: So what?
Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.
I wish I had The Notebook right now. I would lay down, cuddle with my blanket, and cry. Because right now, I really need to release.
October 2009
2 posts
So, hi there.
I love you and I miss us. I wish I could’ve been enough for you.
I've moved on.
I realized, that if I continue to sit here, and just watch you do whatever you want to do without me, I’m going to go insane. So, I did what you told me to do. I moved on. Not for you, but for me. Because it’s never going to be the same, not after what we’ve been through. And now, I know that what you said was true. We’ll never be together again. I just wish you would be...